Mood: Low, depress
Location: Empty CEMS office
Time: 4.40 almost knocking off.

Feel so alone in office. Like I am the only one working here. I am sorting some issues. I decided to move on. Live my happy life. Not look back at anything anymore.

I am happy with Jiawei now. <@_~>

blogging away in office again.

MOOD: BURNING ANGER, ULTRA BAD MOOD

Been in a lousy mood the entire week. Wanted to take off on Thursday since last week. BUT I WAS TOO SLOW! ARGH~ nvm.... die also must take on Feb 11 for CNY.

Some asshole asked me to buy breakfast and then nv pay me money. when i ask from him, he was like wah lao like I owe you so much money like tat. Its not the money. Its that I am pissed that he is always borrowing money and asking ppl to buy things on his behalf... damn this kinda ppl! come on lah... everyone is just working lor and earning a misery wage. do you have to be so pathetic?? CHEAPO!!! Anyway YOU OWE me money, not the other way round, why make it sound like I am so pathetic. Ultra bad mood. Now the whole office thinks I am a cheapo!!!! F**KING asshole!!

I really hope my bad mood will be going off soon, so I can be my cheery self and welcome the New Year.

Let me explore some New Year Resolution:

1) Be less hot tempered.
2) Be a nice and sweet girlfriend <@_~>
3) Learn to cook.
4) Clean my room.
5) Work harder and get more contacts.
6) Study
7) Spend more time at home with my parents
8) Learn Scuba Diving *SMILE*
9) Sleep more and get rid of my dark eye ring.
10) Spend less time online.
11) Quit MSNing during office hour.
12) Be more at peace with myself.
13) Be more forgiving
14) Save more money, hard to save money since I am earning so little. Trying my best.
15) Meet my friends more often.
16) Swim more
17) GET BAPTISED!!!
18) Lose some weight
19) Eat more veggie

Tats all I can think of till now. *yawn* wanna sleep liao... and it only 2 49pm. Time is stuck... must be my computer. there must be some conspiracy (thinking too much again)

Location: Pathetically messy desk in CEMS
Time: 2.36pm
Weather: Drizzling outside, just don’t like raining as much as before
Mood: Ultra low~ cant be lower, just hit rock bottom~
I am dazing away at my seat *yawn* *yawn* *yawn* Its the 23rd today. Why dont I feel happy this year?
Cos I am not. i am just tired and depressed. WHY WHY WHY I hope my mood will go up Up UP tomolo~
2 more days to christmas argh~

Bo Liao day in Office

Hey ppl~

back to blogging from work again. Let me see count the ways I wasted my time in office today:

1) Burning and staring at the vanila flavour candle which ends up smelling like stale coconut oil.(still burning)
2) Complaining to Chris about my weekend (1/2 hour)
3) Complaining to Cheryl about my weekend (1/2 hour)
4) Writing my blog (1/2 hour)
5) Lunching/gossiping/shopping (1 hour)
6) Writing a pathetically short chinese email (2.5 hour... so not efficient~)
7) Crapping with Derick (45 mins)

Part 2, continuing from home~
8) Crapping with Chris and Cheryl (1/2 hr)
9) Toilet breaks (45 mins)
10) and tat leaves me not much time to work anyway.... hahaha I must confess I got work ok. I think I was efficent for 45 mins?????

changed my mind and went orchard after all to do some last minute shopping...

was walking down the stretch of shops and feeling lonely! AW~ why am I so easily depress and lonely these days? Maybe its becos of the fever~

I pretty much like the decor this year. The stretch of lights are all so pretty, minus the freaky dancing christmas tree.

OK OK gtg... tired and sick~ need to sleep... fever is back again~

I am bored and lonely at 1.51am this morning. Feeling sick and fed up~

Fed up of being alone, being neglected, being ignored

At this pt of time, I just hope I can hope on to a plane and fly away from everyone in Singapore. I miss the time of being alone. I feel distant from home. I have nv been tat attached to my parents, and being away from home didnt make me miss them much. I feel like I just want to be alone alone alone... fly away and see the whole world alone. This makes me feel bad all together... Life sucks when you cant choose wat you want to do.

The Retreat
The retreat I went was educational. I got to know more about myself. i am glad that i am a good worker and I do good work. But then I am shy (huh????). kinda funny right... I managed to trash some issues I had with my colleague. I am glad we are still friends. I am sorry you thought I didnt respect you. I always do. Anyway I am glad tat we are now back to talking terms. And Ya, I promise to go lunch everyday now! haha

I have plans... my plans keep changing I cant even keep up with them~ AWFUL! I need to be more focus. I think I wanna study marketing and PR, but let me go try out tat interview first... see if I can make it haha hard but at least I can try ;)

Woo~ tomorrow I am going Sentosa. Excited. At least I dont have to be stuck in office for the next 3 days. hahaha kinda looking forward to it.

I am stoning in office and blogging away. i feel lethargic. I haven had enuff rest since i got back from Pakistan. Actually i think i was well-rested(do we have this word?) in Pakistan. I mean I slept at 10 / 11+ every night. But in Singapore, I only sleep at 1+. I wake up at about 7 /8+ every morning. Pretty much the same as in Singapore. I reckon I had this glow (as per commented by my friends) becos I slept well, so more Pakistan trip for me and less computers. YIPPEE! (go and dream on~)

I suspect that my computer clock is spoilt. The last time i look at it was 3pm, and after like 1 hr(it feels like an hour) it is only 3.12pm. Can you believe it? Argh~ hate relativity!

Was bitching during lunch about my colleagues. Its hard to work with anyone. Not tat I am perfect. Everyone will have some problem working with anyone. Tell me, tell me I am right. (Yesh you are right.) I think its all about minimising all the issues. Dont push me cos I bite hard when I am forced!

AW! CHRISTMAS IS HERE SOON!!! I need more love in my life. hahaha like my cousin say, I cant be alone. I am lonely at home liao. I need a PLAYMATE in my life... OUCH! I dread being alone. no one to talk to at home. coming home to an empty flat. depressing!

A cold lonely and depressing 2004 Christmas~

Wet Wet Wet Weekend~

Its a wet weekend. I haven got to swim at all. Depressing!

Finally got my christmas gift! hehe now on need to worri liao.

I went Marina yesterday and we had a long long talk about alot of things... got me do some deep thinking. I cant decide wat i wanna do next year but i badly wanna study. just study and then i can continue with what i wanna do in future.......

Yawn Yawn Yawn

Friday morning~ should be happy but I am feeling lethargic...

Meeting Ms Heng and gang to celebrate her birthday tonight. Happy Birthday Rosanne! Stay pretty always and I wish you all the best in your complex love life. haha...

Its becoming increasingly difficult to work these days. Some misunderstanding and some ppl giving me black faces now and then... nvm... i try to just do my job and love my job :)

My colleague commented that I seem to have become more quiet since i came back to singapore... well sometimes i guess is the people around you. they give out this negative feeling they have about you... but its better today :)

Went for a shopping spree yesterday... bought a new tankini... a pair of pants and a top. haha my mum thought my tankini is a blouse, she was commenting its a nice blouse until i told her its a tankini. should have seen the look on her face...

Yawn back to work guys... cant wait for christmas to come... :)

Back in Singapore after being in Pakistan for a week.
Totally depressing~ I miss being in Pakistan!

AWW!!!

Anyway I miss home and miss my family and friends. So I guess I am kinda happy to be back.

Pakistan is an eye opener for me. I think I seen lots more things than I ever had. and also I made some major decisions in my life. Plus, I think management is happy with my performance.

I see how things go.... help me someone... i am confused~

AWW DEPRESSING TO BE BACK HOME!

Mood: Low, depress
Location: Empty CEMS office
Time: 4.40 almost knocking off.

Feel so alone in office. Like I am the only one working here. I am sorting some issues. I decided to move on. Live my happy life. Not look back at anything anymore.

I am happy with Jiawei now. <@_~>

blogging away in office again.

MOOD: BURNING ANGER, ULTRA BAD MOOD

Been in a lousy mood the entire week. Wanted to take off on Thursday since last week. BUT I WAS TOO SLOW! ARGH~ nvm.... die also must take on Feb 11 for CNY.

Some asshole asked me to buy breakfast and then nv pay me money. when i ask from him, he was like wah lao like I owe you so much money like tat. Its not the money. Its that I am pissed that he is always borrowing money and asking ppl to buy things on his behalf... damn this kinda ppl! come on lah... everyone is just working lor and earning a misery wage. do you have to be so pathetic?? CHEAPO!!! Anyway YOU OWE me money, not the other way round, why make it sound like I am so pathetic. Ultra bad mood. Now the whole office thinks I am a cheapo!!!! F**KING asshole!!

I really hope my bad mood will be going off soon, so I can be my cheery self and welcome the New Year.

Let me explore some New Year Resolution:

1) Be less hot tempered.
2) Be a nice and sweet girlfriend <@_~>
3) Learn to cook.
4) Clean my room.
5) Work harder and get more contacts.
6) Study
7) Spend more time at home with my parents
8) Learn Scuba Diving *SMILE*
9) Sleep more and get rid of my dark eye ring.
10) Spend less time online.
11) Quit MSNing during office hour.
12) Be more at peace with myself.
13) Be more forgiving
14) Save more money, hard to save money since I am earning so little. Trying my best.
15) Meet my friends more often.
16) Swim more
17) GET BAPTISED!!!
18) Lose some weight
19) Eat more veggie

Tats all I can think of till now. *yawn* wanna sleep liao... and it only 2 49pm. Time is stuck... must be my computer. there must be some conspiracy (thinking too much again)

Location: Pathetically messy desk in CEMS
Time: 2.36pm
Weather: Drizzling outside, just don’t like raining as much as before
Mood: Ultra low~ cant be lower, just hit rock bottom~
I am dazing away at my seat *yawn* *yawn* *yawn* Its the 23rd today. Why dont I feel happy this year?
Cos I am not. i am just tired and depressed. WHY WHY WHY I hope my mood will go up Up UP tomolo~
2 more days to christmas argh~

Bo Liao day in Office

Hey ppl~

back to blogging from work again. Let me see count the ways I wasted my time in office today:

1) Burning and staring at the vanila flavour candle which ends up smelling like stale coconut oil.(still burning)
2) Complaining to Chris about my weekend (1/2 hour)
3) Complaining to Cheryl about my weekend (1/2 hour)
4) Writing my blog (1/2 hour)
5) Lunching/gossiping/shopping (1 hour)
6) Writing a pathetically short chinese email (2.5 hour... so not efficient~)
7) Crapping with Derick (45 mins)

Part 2, continuing from home~
8) Crapping with Chris and Cheryl (1/2 hr)
9) Toilet breaks (45 mins)
10) and tat leaves me not much time to work anyway.... hahaha I must confess I got work ok. I think I was efficent for 45 mins?????

changed my mind and went orchard after all to do some last minute shopping...

was walking down the stretch of shops and feeling lonely! AW~ why am I so easily depress and lonely these days? Maybe its becos of the fever~

I pretty much like the decor this year. The stretch of lights are all so pretty, minus the freaky dancing christmas tree.

OK OK gtg... tired and sick~ need to sleep... fever is back again~

I am bored and lonely at 1.51am this morning. Feeling sick and fed up~

Fed up of being alone, being neglected, being ignored

At this pt of time, I just hope I can hope on to a plane and fly away from everyone in Singapore. I miss the time of being alone. I feel distant from home. I have nv been tat attached to my parents, and being away from home didnt make me miss them much. I feel like I just want to be alone alone alone... fly away and see the whole world alone. This makes me feel bad all together... Life sucks when you cant choose wat you want to do.

The Retreat
The retreat I went was educational. I got to know more about myself. i am glad that i am a good worker and I do good work. But then I am shy (huh????). kinda funny right... I managed to trash some issues I had with my colleague. I am glad we are still friends. I am sorry you thought I didnt respect you. I always do. Anyway I am glad tat we are now back to talking terms. And Ya, I promise to go lunch everyday now! haha

I have plans... my plans keep changing I cant even keep up with them~ AWFUL! I need to be more focus. I think I wanna study marketing and PR, but let me go try out tat interview first... see if I can make it haha hard but at least I can try ;)

Woo~ tomorrow I am going Sentosa. Excited. At least I dont have to be stuck in office for the next 3 days. hahaha kinda looking forward to it.

I am stoning in office and blogging away. i feel lethargic. I haven had enuff rest since i got back from Pakistan. Actually i think i was well-rested(do we have this word?) in Pakistan. I mean I slept at 10 / 11+ every night. But in Singapore, I only sleep at 1+. I wake up at about 7 /8+ every morning. Pretty much the same as in Singapore. I reckon I had this glow (as per commented by my friends) becos I slept well, so more Pakistan trip for me and less computers. YIPPEE! (go and dream on~)

I suspect that my computer clock is spoilt. The last time i look at it was 3pm, and after like 1 hr(it feels like an hour) it is only 3.12pm. Can you believe it? Argh~ hate relativity!

Was bitching during lunch about my colleagues. Its hard to work with anyone. Not tat I am perfect. Everyone will have some problem working with anyone. Tell me, tell me I am right. (Yesh you are right.) I think its all about minimising all the issues. Dont push me cos I bite hard when I am forced!

AW! CHRISTMAS IS HERE SOON!!! I need more love in my life. hahaha like my cousin say, I cant be alone. I am lonely at home liao. I need a PLAYMATE in my life... OUCH! I dread being alone. no one to talk to at home. coming home to an empty flat. depressing!

A cold lonely and depressing 2004 Christmas~

Wet Wet Wet Weekend~

Its a wet weekend. I haven got to swim at all. Depressing!

Finally got my christmas gift! hehe now on need to worri liao.

I went Marina yesterday and we had a long long talk about alot of things... got me do some deep thinking. I cant decide wat i wanna do next year but i badly wanna study. just study and then i can continue with what i wanna do in future.......

Yawn Yawn Yawn

Friday morning~ should be happy but I am feeling lethargic...

Meeting Ms Heng and gang to celebrate her birthday tonight. Happy Birthday Rosanne! Stay pretty always and I wish you all the best in your complex love life. haha...

Its becoming increasingly difficult to work these days. Some misunderstanding and some ppl giving me black faces now and then... nvm... i try to just do my job and love my job :)

My colleague commented that I seem to have become more quiet since i came back to singapore... well sometimes i guess is the people around you. they give out this negative feeling they have about you... but its better today :)

Went for a shopping spree yesterday... bought a new tankini... a pair of pants and a top. haha my mum thought my tankini is a blouse, she was commenting its a nice blouse until i told her its a tankini. should have seen the look on her face...

Yawn back to work guys... cant wait for christmas to come... :)

Back in Singapore after being in Pakistan for a week.
Totally depressing~ I miss being in Pakistan!

AWW!!!

Anyway I miss home and miss my family and friends. So I guess I am kinda happy to be back.

Pakistan is an eye opener for me. I think I seen lots more things than I ever had. and also I made some major decisions in my life. Plus, I think management is happy with my performance.

I see how things go.... help me someone... i am confused~

AWW DEPRESSING TO BE BACK HOME!